bindi

gue punya bindi nihh.....ditengah garis hidung gue antara mata kanan dan mata kiri...gara2nya...dr kemaren, abis makan siang, gue sakit kepala banget,....pulang tidur, didn't help....minum panadol, didn't help either, akhirnya saking gag tahan, gue pijit2 sendiri.....trus tidur....

tadi pagi....abis mandi, lagi ngaca....ya ampunn...ada garis merah ditengah2 hidung gue....sampe skrg gag ilang juga...dr pagi udh jadi bahan ledekan aja gue....betenya lagi...gue masih aja pusing2 padahal td siang gue udh minum panadol juga..hiks hiks...whuts' wrong with me...?????

akhirnya rencana liburan jadi juga....tp sebagai eo tdk resmi, gue agag lieur juga...cos, tadinya ada yg mau pulang pagi...cos musti kerja, tp ternyata gag jd....tp ternyata ada lagi nih yg pengen pulang pagi cos mau ada kondangan kawinan jam 11 siang????....how's that possible, gue gag tau, cos carita kan gag deket2 amat ke jkt...at least 2,5 - 3 jam lah yaaa.....kl mo kondangan jam segitu, pikir aja musti berangkat jam berapa....mana harus nyalon dulu buat pake konde dll...

gue udh curhat2 sama salah satu anak....akhirnya dia bilang, yah gimana...there's nothing u can do...soalnya gag mungkin juga gue harus ngorbanin anak2 yg lain dengan ngajakin pulang pagi...demi 1 anak aja....ya nggak???....atau kalau musti voting, kayaknya juga udh ketahuan deh hasilnya....mana ada yg mau pulang pagi2...sementara didepan loe, pantainya menggoda iman bgttt......geezzz....i don't have a clue....
jadi...gue gag tau deh, musti gimana...gue sih udh kasih tau...let her make the decision....kl menurut gue sih...kayaknya gag enak juga kalo dia gag ikutan....krn dr awal juga udh rame2 bikin rencananya...cuman...yah ituh tadi...there's nothing more i could do....

mualesss

today=males bgttttt....
gag tau kenapa, yang pasti males bgt kerja...tray gue udh ampe penuh tp gue bener2 gag ada hasrat (ciyeh...)buat sortir2....alhasil dr tadi gue input2 gag kelar2....tiap liat angka2, aduh....langsung pusing....hiks...browsing=udh ampe munmun dunno what else to look for....

jadi kesimpulannya, gue pengen pulang and tidur cepet....kalo bisa besok pagi gag usah masuk kantor...hmmm...tp bisa nggak yah???....i'm so sick with myself for being to diligent sometimes...

this stupid stupid feeling

i'm soo mad cause i' having this stupid cramps...since last nite...couldn't sleep well...constantly having nightmares...sumtimes i'm thinking about this thing that we, women, have to have...it's not that i'm complaining...but...it's the ever changing mood, the cramps...the crankiness...blablabla....oh geez.....

this plan to carita also makes me feel bad...cause, sum people want to stay at marbella, but with limited budget we will have to stay at one room...with 8people...geezz, .......we can rent with cheaper rate (i got it in the net), but still...if you do not reserve some place thru' it's official channel...sometimes it makes you wonder whether all things are going to be okay...after all...it's vacation...we wouldn't want anything to be not okay.....but, thank goodness some are wiser by choosing cheaper and bigger place with the same budget...think i'm going with the 2nd choice...cause, for me, it's not about the place.......

nnn....i'm lil bit confused now...someone offered me a job...it's in the other island....very tempting and beautiful one....it's not that i got the job already....i still have to go thru' the interview ect....but....already, last night i gave lots of thought bout it...whether i have enough courage to leave all these behind me...starting new life there...i want to move from this company i'm currently working at...but, moving to other city as well as other island is not the same with just moving to other company....here....i already discussed this with someone...and the decision is that i'll go with the interview process, if i get the job and the salary is okayy...i'll move...and then after couple of months...i'll go back here, to jakarta....!!!!...God...what kind of decision is that???.....wouldn't i waste my time...my energy...to do something halfway like that???? actually that's not my decision, it's his decision, considering what??...i dunno....me, myself, still wondering, what i'll decide and do...

days gone by

i had hectic days these last 2 weeks....not just work, which is getting more and more into my nerve by days....had lots in my mind...couldn't think straight...refusing tempting offer to go out with my friends....just wanted to have lots of sleep...i did have actually...quite refreshing..... went out just couple of times, dining out with my friends, having a cup of coffe @ my fave cafe with my fave friend...heheheh.......what else??...nothin'....just cuddling up at my room with music on and mistery novel....what a cure.....

then i saw my baby nephew, hafizh last weekend...haven't seen him in 2 weeks ...my God...he's so lovely n soo adorable...so big n so cute...heheheh....finally since he's getting bigger now, i had the courage to hold him...heheheh....meeting my aunties, my mom's older sisters, 3 actually, who just came from Java....to visit my brother's newborn baby....you can guess what was really happening....though i have already oversaw it...i mean, what else?...what's new???...the same old question still came up....no matter what my answer was....i couldn't seem to get it right....left me speechless....well u know, i can't entirely blame them...since my mom passed away almost 2 years ago...they all feel that they are responsible to what happen in my life...to make sure that my life is allright...my life is okay......

truth is....i'm glad they still care about me...but they sometimes forget that i'm all grown up now...i can take care of myself...that i am a free spirited one...to do what i wish to do....to have my life they i want it....because i know...that's exactly what my mom would want from me...if she were still alive...she always knew that i could always take care of myself...so....i'll make damn sure...that i'll be just that....


in the loving memory of my beloved deceased mother...

wiken

today is just like another monday....hectic, bored, sleepy....bla bla bla...
i don't blame it entirely on monday for the boredom and sleepyness i am having...partly might be caused by my lack of restness on weekend.....but again...how could i just stay put in my room without going out at all????...no can do...

my first agenda last weekend was...visiting my baby nephew...geez i really missed him out last two weekend....and i just knew it...he's just getting bigger and bigger...boy...he's such a handsome babe!!!!....i went to my brother's house on friday night, and then...on saturday i got back to my dorm cause i had a date ...heheheh...we wanted to go to prj (geezz...:p)....but since it was really hot...we decided to go to pi....(wish came true, cause i wanted to see M sale, the bags actually heheheh)...cause he was going to find me something for my birthday...:)...(cool....i got what i wanted....hehehehhe)

no bags left...instead i met an ex-collegue whose wife is also working in the same company as i am. But i didn't see her...and then i also met dina and hikari, who were already getting in the line to cashier..:p....with pants and jeans in hands...hehehehhe....women....then....we went to sogo...got my gift....stopped by at olala for a mochalatte (yummy)....and a nice leisurely talk, 'bout everything, looking and giving comments to people around us....hehehhehe........then upstairs, sneaked a peek at 9west....mann...i love looking at the shoes...heheheh...but i still got my sanity and not spending my money down there, got something for his cute lil sister, and a t-shirt for him....and just looking around commenting on the crazy prices there for things that probably won't get a second glance except for the price only....

after that i went to my bro's house again...thinking that i would rather see hafizh then spending sat night at my room. On sunday, i headed to ps, we were going to have 'arisan'...hehehe....it was my turn actually, so i was very eager...saw Glenn Fredly singing...those mellow songs...it was so crowded, i thought that everyone was spending the day at ps. Hanging out at 3 different places, then headed back to stbd at 7pm....but i stopped by at angel's to get my gift (again...hehehhe)...and accompanied her to find new dorm..and thanks God, we got it, just right in front of her current dorm. It's new and very clean...cool...then continued talking in her old room, about everything, guys, mostly...heheheh.....then at about 9pm, went home, and felt light headed, couldn't wait to take a cool bath and had a sleep out...zzzzzzzz...zzzzz...zzzzz.....zzzzz

dinner

Yesterday....it seems so far away....

heheheh.......benernya sih, kmrn sore, gue sedikit berpikir, kenapa musti hujan deress bgt yahhh, cuaca sangat gag bersahabat,...bikin jakarta jadi banjir...buat pergi ke tempat yang deket dr kantor aja...waduh..butuh usaha ekstra keras...ditengah hujan deras pula....

bukannya gue ngeluh atau apa...tetep aja gue thankful banget, karena meski kmrn sore ujan, balmy, etc etc...tetep aja temen2 gue masih menyempatkan diri buat datang and had dinner bareng sama gue....dalam rangka apa yah...hmmm...:p...

and justru dengan kondisi kayak gitu, pulang kerja, ujan, bikin selera makan kita jadi "menggila"...tanpa basa basi...langsung aja sikat abis apa aja yg ada didepan mata....(the food is what i mean... hehehe..ntar disangka makan gelas n piring juga kan gawat)....
ada satu cerita menarik juga, tempat kita makan kmrn, kalo pas jam2 dinner emang antri bgt, waiting list...jadi gue udah reserved sehari sebelumnya...n karena temen2 gue datangnya gag barengan....alhasil kita disana ampe 2jam-an...nunggu ampe temen gue yg terakhir datang kelar makan...kayaknya 2jam itu adalah rekor disana...cos tambah lama kayaknya waiter2nya jadi jutek sama kita, pesenan kita yang terakhir2 ampe lama banget disaji-in....yang ampe pulang pun...mbak2 receptionis yang ada didepan udah gag mampu lagi tuk menyunggingkan senyum lagi pas bilang terima kasih sama kita pas kita cabut dr situ.....heheheheh....

intinya buat gue,...tempat itu enak2 makanannya...and also quiet cozy, gue udah beberapa kali kesitu dan memang gag selama yang kemaren....tapi tetep aja dengan kejadian kemaren, gue jadi mikir, kita kan customer, no matter how long we stay there, how much money we spend, or how many people waiting in the list....WE deserve to be treated nicely...
But, since it was my "dinner"...i wasn't going to let anything to ruin it....jadi kemaren kita tetep ketawa ketiwi...ampe kita ngelewatin tempat itu lagi untuk kedua kali and liat si mbak receptionis yang masih aja jutek, padahal gag mungkin lah dia gag inget sama kita, it was just a minute ago gitu loh...jadi...sc**w them...we still had fun last night... eniwei......didn't we girls!!!!.....

thanks frenzz....luvvvvv