days gone by

i had hectic days these last 2 weeks....not just work, which is getting more and more into my nerve by days....had lots in my mind...couldn't think straight...refusing tempting offer to go out with my friends....just wanted to have lots of sleep...i did have actually...quite refreshing..... went out just couple of times, dining out with my friends, having a cup of coffe @ my fave cafe with my fave friend...heheheh.......what else??...nothin'....just cuddling up at my room with music on and mistery novel....what a cure.....

then i saw my baby nephew, hafizh last weekend...haven't seen him in 2 weeks ...my God...he's so lovely n soo adorable...so big n so cute...heheheh....finally since he's getting bigger now, i had the courage to hold him...heheheh....meeting my aunties, my mom's older sisters, 3 actually, who just came from Java....to visit my brother's newborn baby....you can guess what was really happening....though i have already oversaw it...i mean, what else?...what's new???...the same old question still came up....no matter what my answer was....i couldn't seem to get it right....left me speechless....well u know, i can't entirely blame them...since my mom passed away almost 2 years ago...they all feel that they are responsible to what happen in my life...to make sure that my life is allright...my life is okay......

truth is....i'm glad they still care about me...but they sometimes forget that i'm all grown up now...i can take care of myself...that i am a free spirited one...to do what i wish to do....to have my life they i want it....because i know...that's exactly what my mom would want from me...if she were still alive...she always knew that i could always take care of myself...so....i'll make damn sure...that i'll be just that....


in the loving memory of my beloved deceased mother...