Writer Wannabe

I love to write...mostly about my everyday life...about my family, my work, my friends, and also about about my love life. I've written diary since elementary school, writing girly sissy things, mostly 'bout my crush i had, but i stopped when my brother read them aloud in front of my parents and some of my cousins. I was so embarrased i burned my diary. Then i started writing again in high school, with still the same topic, boyfriends, girlfriends, school, etc. But, again it stopped when i finished HS.

Then i moved to another city to continue my study, living alone away from my family. Sounded like a perfect opportunity for me to start writing again, but i didn't write anything at all, except for all the duty papers from classes. No more silly things, nothing.

After graduating, i then moved to other city, the one i live in now...started working like everyone else. Four years later, i'm still working in this same old company....and lately, it makes me wonder, where the hell have i been all these years...i have this free internet access 24 hours a day, i have this free flexible time to manage by myself, but i have never ever used this facility to learn or try to write again....mannn...this hit me so hard in the face...!!!!....

A year ago, i started to write my own blog, then i deleted it because i was soo embarrased reading all those entries....they were all RUBBISH....damnn....i even couldn't write well....i started to compare those with other people's blog...it made mo so envy why others could write so well...flowing...just like water....

Then...i made my 2nd blog few months ago...this time i say to myself that i'm okay, i could deal with this...finally i've come to realize that, 1st, some people were born to write, just like that, u can't envy them, it's a gift...and 2nd, some people have to learn to write...maybe i'm included...so what...everything can be learnt......so i started writing again, beginning with little things still....my work, my family, my friends, my love, and my life....who knows....in the next coming years....(dunno when).....i will be able to write my own book....whether it be romance novel or my own otobiography....hehehhehe.....one thing i learn...we have to start somewhere to make it happen....